Journal Entry 2/14 From Kristi

It was a sweet Valentine’s weekend... I bought a box of chocolates for Zac and a second box of chocolates for Zac to give to me. Haha

The weather dropped to -4 and the snow began to fall, placing a peaceful white blanket on everything grey. Such is the grace of God.

Zac put in a solid workout on Saturday with a mentor that had a similar injury 20 years ago... I continue to appreciate his laughter as he works with adaptive equipment to help him with what used to be simple tasks. He always seems up for a challenge.

We were blessed to listen in on church back home and then spend the afternoon chatting with Franz, who also broke his C6 vertebrae, and his mom. The laughter was contagious as the two boys talked about their limitations; the fellowship in sharing like-weaknesses was an encouragement for all of us. Certainly, the Lord has designed the body of Christ to be comforted by one another.

It feels like we are closing in on the home stretch of inpatient rehab. It’s a little scary to consider any kind of transition. Not feeling ready yet.

After saying goodnight to Zac and as I walked back through the snow to my room, I put on headphones to listen to a rebroadcast of Everest leading worship. I turned the volume up as loud as I could take it, drowning out thoughts of the path still before us.

Everest's beautiful voice just kept singing, “I don’t want to go if You’re not going before me...”

And I just broke. One minute so strong and the next so weak.

But the Lord just kept whispering, “Kristi, you can go forward because I’m going before you. I’m going before you....”.

Then the tsunami of my heart subsided, the questions faded away, and the water became still once again. Peace.

He is going before us. And that is all I need to know.