Journal Update 12/10 From Kristi

Just when I don’t think the Lord can stretch my heart anymore...

Today... sitting at Zac’s bedside, watching him watch the movie The Chosen, as the crowd watched the paralytic lowered to Jesus’ feet... and Jesus healed him. Completely.

When the movie concluded we sat there in silence for a moment. I went to him and kissed him on the forehead. “That is your Jesus, Zac, doing exceedingly abundantly above all we ask or think.” He glanced down at his feet and looked quiet and content.

Eph 2 seemed to be the new theme for today. “But God... rich in mercy..” and here we have been abiding three weeks in Mercy Hospital... “...for we are His workmanship” this is His story, Zac! We do not need to make sense of it, “created... for Good Works... that we should WALK in them.”

So Zac got time alone with Dad today while I took off to run a few errands. My first solo outing away from Zac. I quickly felt numb, moving in and out of stores around town, people all around me, doing their daily routine, and I began to feel like I was unraveling. I found myself quoting Scripture to steady my heart as I walked through the store, mindlessly pulling my items off the shelf. “Get me back to the fire, Lord.” I heard myself saying. “It felt safer there”.

Returning, I pulled into the hospital parking lot and a peace came over me. I made my way down the very familiar halls and then back into Zac’s room to see his smiling face.

And my heart once again felt steadfast.

Such a comfort in the fire! How can this be?

Because there is Another in the fire, standing next to me. And I tell you, once I entered back into that hospital room, I was so comforted in the overwhelming presence of God, just flowed over me, filling me with His peace and His calm.

“Zac, God is here in this room and it is palpable,” I told him.

Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego fellowshipped with Jesus in the fire. But God also performed miracles in there too... they were WALKiNG around, not getting burned.

You wait, you watch, you‘ll see.