Journal Entry 3/19 From Kristi

“But that you may KNOW ....”

We were listening to the Bible the other day when the story of Jesus healing the paralytic came on. This phrase in Mark 2:10 caught my attention... “that you may KNOW” Jesus forgives sins, He commanded the paralytic to “rise up.”

God performs great works so that others may know He has the power, not only to heal broken bodies, but to save broken spirits. Restoring a right relationship with God through the work of Jesus on the cross is always His greatest purpose. But He often demonstrates His power in our lives in physical ways “that we may KNOW” He can heal what really is broken inside of us.

Everything God is doing in Zac points back to Jesus. And that is exactly what God did for him this week: He gave him his right pointer finger back. On Tuesday, Zac returned from his OT session with a big smile on his face. “Now my pointer finger is working!” he exclaimed. It moves ever so slightly, but his nerves are connecting and he can repeat the motion. That is just like You, Lord. For every good work accomplished in Zac points to You.

Still, it is a battle of patience for me at times. It is a battle to not let my heart grow anxious... Not rushing ahead of God, thinking He is slow, indeed, "The Lord is not slow in keeping His promise, as some understand slowness.” (2 Peter 3:9).

After a night of tears this week, as I cried out to the Lord for full healing for my son, i woke to this beautiful passage, shared from a friend, from Luke 1:45, “Blessed is she who believed, for there will be a fulfillment of those things which were told her from the Lord.” Again and again, the Lord always brings me back to trust.

Trust in what I cannot see. Joy in what I can see... my son now able to point his once paralyzed finger back to Jesus. And somehow all is at peace in my heart for another day.

In counting blessings, It has been an awesome week with Spencer here. He has been able to attend Zachary’s rehab classes and witness firsthand the hard work that he has been putting in. Spencer was able to watch Zac stand and balance, working his core (with full support in his knees and hips), for 2 1/2 minutes on Tuesday and then for 4 1/2 minutes on Thursday. This is up from 6 seconds two weeks ago.

It has also been such a blessing to take a step back and watch the brothers enjoy each other, learning to navigate going out to eat with limited hand function, pushing the wheelchair through the snow, visiting Red Rocks Park, playing a board game with Franz... Today they are putting Zac’s new finger to use at Colorado Clays Shooting Park.

“But that you may KNOW”.... thank You, Lord, for knowledge to rest our hearts upon, for hope to anchor our faith upon, and Truth to place our feet upon.

And as You are working in ways I cannot see, I will choose, as the paralytic, to “rise up” in prelude to the work You will accomplish in Zac.